Char's Web of Dreams
Take a moment please to read some poems that I have written

 

Free The Children
A Child Abuse site lovingly presented by Yvonne

 

Alcohol & Drug Information
A helpful US Department of Health & Human Services reference site

 

City of Regret
This site is BEAUTIFUL! The music to the beginning page is the most soothing I have ever heard. Lights out, eyes closed & lean back. It will take you to a world unknown.

 

elcome - "You Are No Longer Alone"

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My name is Charla. I have been dealing with drugs for some 15 years now.I have two sons that have been using for years. The oldest of the two has almost lost his life twice due to, once an overdose and once due to drug induced anger. He was always the good Son growing up. Never in trouble in school. Always on the honor roll and an honest person. Then at the age of 15 he began to seem different. Dressing differently, moody, different friends and grades falling. This was the beginning of a nightmare that has yet to end.

My youngest Son started out always in trouble in Kindergarten and all through school. He picked the wrong friends and made the wrong choices. He too, almost lost his life once to drug overdose. The both of them have been in several drug rehabs and of course in jail. At this time the older one resides in jail from drug affliated offenses. He is now 31 years old and the younger 29 years old.

I want to share my many experiences with you to let you know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. To help you accept and believe it is NOT your fault. We tend to beat ourselves up over & over.

When we see our newborn for the first time we feel an overwhelming feeling of love and protection for them. We feel we are totally responsible for who and what they turn out to be. When our dreams do not happen we begin to feel we have failed not only our child but also ourselves.

During our group chats we can learn many things we may not know about drugs. The purpose of this group is to know we all share one thing, drugs have touched our lives in one way or another. We need to be able to share and vent with others who have walked our path in order to understand and survive. I am willing to open up my experiences and chat and do what I can to help you.

Have you ever fell to your knees pleading for God to take you now? Have you ever felt you are unable to save your child? How about wanting to trust and believe them,"one more time" all the while knowing they're still doing it? Has your child ever stolen from you? Do you think if they really wanted to stop they would? Have you lost a child or loved one to this demon? Do you feel it is your fault?

Email me, Charla. Let's share our hurts and feelings trusting each other to keep it between us and we can get through it.

Remember that the three most difficult things to say are I Love You; Sorry and Help Me and what is most difficult for you to say or do is more valuable than anything that you can buy with money!

"You Are Not Alone"

This thing that hovers over my child, is something so evil and so wild.

It gathers the ones who seem to be weak. It goes and goes like an invisable streak!

It breaks the hearts so full of love and doesn't care about the innocent Dove.

A Parent's nightmare, this thing is. Something we never wanted to live.

Our children, our families, or maybe a friend, this thing will try all so it can live.

So sad to watch and nothing we can do. It makes you feel you want to be through!

I'm speaking of drugs, a horrible disease. We just want to make it, oh make it cease!

But until we can, we need to pray. Stick together and together stay.

Share our pain and our broken hearts. So now we can try and get a new start.

It even invaids those who are grown. So always remember: "YOU ARE NOT ALONE!"

Written By: Charla Linder Simmons
September 20, 2004 - Copyright©2004

Best Friends

When I was little, I used to believe in the concept of one best friend, and then I started to become a woman.

Then I realized, that if you allow your heart to open up, God would show you the best in many friends.

One friend's best is needed when you're going through things with your man.

Another friend's best is needed when you're going through things with your Momma.

Another when you want to shop, share, heal, hurt, joke, or just be you.

One friend will say let's pray together, another let's cry together, another let's fight together, another let's walk away together.

One friend will meet your spiritual need, another your shoe fetish, another your love for movies, another will be with you in your season of confusion, another will be your clarifier, another the wind beneath your wings.

But what ever their assignment in your life, on whatever the occasion, on whatever the day, or where ever you need them to meet you with their gym shoes on and hair pulled back or to hold you back from making a complete fool of yourself... those are your best friends.

It may all be wrapped up in one woman, but for many it's wrapped up in several. One from 7th grade, one from high school, several from the college years. A couple from old Jobs, several from church, on some days your Mother, on others your sisters. On some days it's the one that you needed just for that day or week because you needed someone with a fresh perspective.

The one who didn't know all your baggage, or the one who would just listen without judging...those are good girlfriends / best friends.

Men are wonderful... husbands are excellent, boyfriends are awesome, male friends are priceless... but if you've ever had a real good girlfriend, then you know there's nothing like her!

I thank my girlfriends, those who honor intimacy, those who hold trust and those who just got your back when you feel like "Life is just too Heavy!"

I thank you. The special bond we share, that's unique to us. The words we've shared. The prayers we've sent up. The laughs, the tears, the phone calls.The emails, the shopping, the movies, the lunches, the dinners, the late night talks, afternoon talks, the weekend talks, shop talk, all the talking, talking, talking and the listening, listening, listening....

So whether you've been there 20 minutes or 20 years, I love you!

“A ball is a circle. No beginning, no end.
It keeps us together, like our Circle of Friends;
but, the treasure inside, for you to see
is the treasure of friendship you've granted to me.

Today I pass the friendship ball to you. Pass it on to someone who is a friend to you.”

We are the Circle of Friends, made from a chain,
A chain of cable and wire without an end.

 


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